I went to the train station near my grandparents house today because I stayed there last night and had to get home, and the whole time I was thinking please don’t let me see anyone here, but sort of also wanting to see a certain someone (on the whole though, he’s the last person I wanted to see, you know what i mean?) anyway so I’d been there for about 10 minutes and was just like yeah okay I doubt I’ll see anyone here and then all of a sudden, I see someone stand in front of me and look up and it’s him? I have done so well without him lately, I’ve been so happy and great and fine with us not really talking and now thanks to that I feel like shit. I just stood there with my heart pounding trying to hide that I was actually trembling. I can’t do it. I just can’t have him in any part of my life.